I feel like JUMPING FOR JOY!!!
This FEELS AWESOME!!!
It's so satisfying!
That's how I feel after hearing from a young lady I met awhile back, when my youngest daughter dropped her off at my office one day. She had called, said her friend needed to talk to me and she was bringing her over.
This daughter, claimed not to believe in any of the things I do... BUT she was still bringing her friend to me for help.
I expected her to come in...but instead she dropped her off and drove away.
It didn't take long for me to see why my daughter kept insisting to her friend- "you just need to talk to my Mom and then you'll be OK."
Why can't I be a real person?"
Wow! My daughter was perceptive when she identified that I ALSO had gone through that very same conflict awhile back.
I had previously felt like a NON-Person.... who merely existed and really didn't matter.
I looked to others JUST TO FEEL OK.... and I hated being alone with myself!
Because I had put myself last for so long that I never took time for me. When I realized I had not LIVED YET, felt like I had spent my entire life in a coma and I was just waking up.
I WANTED TO LIVE!!!
It seemed my mere interest in becoming a REAL PERSON and
actually LIVING MY LIFE was threatening to others in my family.
They were loved very much, I didn't understand -
Why did they want me to remain miserable?
I held myself sacred and proudly announced to friends and family members,
"I'm a REAL PERSON now!!!"
My daughter's friend was going through the same thing I had gone through!
I talked with her and shared with her some of MY STORY.
We got together again a couple more times and visited on the phone sometimes too.
Recently, this young woman called me. She was tearfully expressing her gratitude to me for helping her, she changed her whole life and she had not thought it was even possible.
She shared that she had previously been a Meth Addict... which she had not told me about because she was too afraid to. She shared it with me now because she is no longer using drugs and is happily LIVING HER LIFE ...
A REAL PERSON!!!
She said that QUITTING WAS EASY and she hasn't even really struggled with craving those drugs at all. SHE FEELS TRULY BLISSFUL. She's Excited to rediscover the world, because it's NOT AS BAD as she used to think it was!
She thanked me over and over again. She said that I changed her life.
NO... I didn't do it.
SHE DID IT... I just LOVED HER UNCONDITIONALLY, gave her the encouragement and guidance she needed when she felt scared and alone.
She is a person, like me, Native Descent, but very mixed blood.
She actually looks more native american than I do.
I helped her to understand some things about our native people, the way things used to be before. I encouraged her to hold her head up and KEEP GOING FORWARD.
Taught her to LOOK WITHIN HERSELF to find the answers to the questions plaguing her mind...
"WHO AM I?"
"WHY AM I HERE?"
"WHAT IS THIS ALL ABOUT?"
"WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO BE DOING?"
"WHAT DOES GOD WANT FROM ME?"
She obviously DID IT...
I only pointed her in the right direction.
She says that I was the one who inspired her and believed in her.
My response is- WOW!!!
SHE IS THE ONE WHO IS INSPIRING .... to ME!!!!
Thank You Sweetie!
I"M SO PROUD OF YOU!!!!
YOU NEVER HAD TO HIDE YOUR ADDICTION FROM ME....
BUT I'M SO GLAD YOU SHARE IT WITH ME NOW!!!
I'M SO PROUD of BOTH OF YOU GIRLS!!!
My daughter, for trying to help her friend in the best way she knew how....
by bringing her to me.
That Alone.... was a HUGE INSPIRATION too!
I can't describe this feeling accurately with words....
it's too big for words!!!
Positive Efforts I made in MY OWN LIFE are showing their BIG REWARDS!!!
Miigwech! (Big Thanks!)
written by: Jennifer Kruse, LMT CRMT