Awakening within an Unconscious World by: Jennifer Kruse, LMT CRMT
"Who am I?"
"Why am I here?"
Have you noticed the world doesn't feel quite right to you anymore?
You've felt there is something important you are supposed to be doing, but can't quite remember what it is. You feel a deep sense of urgency to do it, sometimes it feels like you are late and fear you might be running out of time, you rush around doing things, hoping maybe by doing a lot, you will do that thing you were supposed to do... But still you feel a growing sense of panic inside, you know your important task remains undone and still you wonder, "What am I supposed to be doing?"
You probably even sensed that others are depending upon you to do whatever it is you were supposed to be doing. You wonder...."What happens if I don't do it?"
Scary possibilities race through your mind and you rush to do more things. Chances are that you've already tried to help others. Yes, because that feels right to you... It is part of your purpose to help and be of service to others, but still that's not all of it, it's more specific than that.
When you look around and observe people in public, many of them look away from you as if looking you in the eye hurts them or something, right?
This happens so much, have you ever wondered if it really does hurt them? Why do they look away? Did you notice they don't seem like they are really in there? It’s like they have varying degrees of life within them... Some seem more like empty shells who just exist, performing mindless tasks like zombies. They really aren't living. They are merely existing and they aren't even enjoying it. Much of the time they wish they were dead so they could be done, life has been such a great disappointment to them. Seems like they are also wondering, "What's the point of this life anyway?"
Dead + walking = zombie
Yes, they are like zombies; mostly dead inside, just waiting for their outsides to catch up with their insides.
If you are anything like me, you’ve already realized that many of them seem almost completely dead inside and sometimes you just want to hang a sign around their neck saying, “Dead inside, don’t bother.” Depressing, isn’t it?
What can you do about it?
No - You can't shoot them in the head... But it is their head that is the problem. They are so locked up in their heads, running around in their thoughts, their fears, reliving their lives gone wrong over and over again on repeat.
Hey, didn't it suck the first 50 times they watched it? Don’t they know that just because a repeat gets high ratings, it doesn’t necessarily mean it’s a good show? Maybe it’s more like a really bad B-horror movie, like Sharknado, that got such great ratings they are making a sequel! No... It’s much worse than Sharknado, because at least it had a ridiculous storyline that was somewhat entertaining! No such luck for the zombies I've seen working as cashiers at Kmart, getting their nails done, playing fantasy football, gossiping by the water cooler at work or whatever.
Even if they are living the American dream with plenty of money... to them, the story of their lives still seems tragic... so bad it is like a train wreck, they just can't take their eyes off of it to notice how much they have to be thankful for. Some zombies are so poor, all they really have is their money and they just keep trying to get more of it, like that will make them feel better.
They use others to fulfill their own hunger, as if the suffering of others could somehow make them feel a little better. Maybe it tells them that they aren't alone in their misery.
If everyone was living a wonderful life except you... Yep, that would seem to suck even worse, wouldn't it? So the zombies have spread... And here you are trying to figure out life while living among the dead.
As for the regular mid to lower class zombies... they go to work, they pay their bills, drive their cars and think about getting the next great thing that will make them happy... So they focus on being happy and keep working til they get it. The longer they've done it... The less they believe the lie they've been telling themselves... That any "thing" will ever be enough to make them happy. Truth is, nothing will ever do that. But rather than realizing that it’s all a lie and start looking for happiness elsewhere... They continue to believe it and do the same thing over and over. The less they believe their own lies about impending future happiness.... the more dead inside they seem, right?
Do you know what happens to those happy marriages? That's right... they usually end with The Zombie Apocalypse.
The one who's dead inside ends up ripping their spouses loving heart out and eating it for dinner... then it's Brains for dessert! Leaving their spouse divorced, broken and mostly dead inside... They go their separate ways, often they gladly share the zombie virus with their children and thus this is how the zombie plague has spread like wild fire.
Nobody really trusts anyone anymore... Can't trust zombies to have your back, but those who aren't zombies yet... They are so freaked out, can't really trust them either. Ever pinch yourself to find out if maybe you were just dreaming that you were in the Twilight Zone? Yeah, I've done it too.
Hey look on the bright side...
At least you've noticed you are different, after all, you could be a zombie, right? You've noticed, "I'm not like these people."
You've thought, "I don't belong here."
You've wondered, "If I don't belong here, where do I belong?"
At least you started to notice...
What about all the years you hadn't noticed any of this, why didn't you notice? Were you too distracted to notice, so caught up in your blissful life to notice the suffering going on all around you?
OR were you kind of like them?
Was it just so normal that you didn't notice how incredibly messed up it was? If you were like them or ever met anyone who was and changed... Then you know they can change too. They can, even the Bible talks about raising the dead, so there's still hope for them.
If you aren’t an unconscious person (aka a zombie), WHO ARE YOU?
What’s been happening to you?
You are Awakening to remember who you really are.
In order to do that, you will have to be willing to let go of who you are not.
FYI: They aren't really flesh eating zombies. This was written expressing the frustrated feelings you have likely been experiencing so far. You don't have to continue feeling that way. You are not alone. We’re here if you need assistance, providing personal coaching sessions by phone or skype.
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